story for today

halluuuuu
hehehehe
hai to my pembaca
(walaupon kakak tak tahu ade org bace tak)

so
hari nie
saat nie
kakak rasa nak mengarut sikit
nak cerita sikit
semua sikit
hehehehehe

tengok laa mana yg kakak teringat
masa kakak menaip nie

ok first

selepas sebulan dok rumah

dan semalam bos kakak ws

"assalamualaikum budak...dtg tak minggu depan"

urghhh,,,terasa mcm alarm clock pepagi tu

hahahaha

sedar laa anda bahawa cuti sebulan anda sudah habis

next week dah mula kerja balik

(tp tiket bas haram tak beli lg tokkk)

i will meet those chibisuke

miss them so much

kalau ade rayyan gn naufal kan best

nt kalau jumpe bebudak transit pulak

they will ask me

"kak eryn gi mana?" "lama tak nmpk kak erin"

dan lain-lain lagi

biase laa cekeletah budak

ohh miss them so much

tp at the same time

i know that i hv to find another job ASAP

my ptptn, kereta, 

sewa rumah(akan dtg), bil2 rumah

semua aku dah ambik alih tanggung jawab

kesian kat ayah

dgn keadaan sakit mcm tu lg

so no matter what happen i hv to find job

and of course part time job to support my expenses

betul,duduk kl ke duduk mana jee 

everything needs money babe

nasib i'm not the one who love shopping

i will buy something when i feel like

i need those thing

so Alhamdulillah

but i'm the one 

who will not spend my money into buy things

but i will spend my money on FOOD

no matter what happen

and all of my money go there like water

whaaaaaaaa

want to control but

my aka-chan wont fail to seduce me to buy food

hahahahahah

ok next topic!

sbb cakap pasal makan make me want to eat now

(even kakak baru lepas makan dikkkk)

next topic pulak pasal pelajaran kakak

ehh kakak mmg dah habis belajar

tp org ckp jgn berhenti cari ilmu

kakak skrg tgh belajar bahasa jepun

(belajar sendiri jee)

dengan bantuan buku, anime n movie

n tgh kuatkan pengetahuan bahasa korea

dulu dah belajar

lepas tu tinggal kejap

peshummm di bawa angin ingatannya

so belajar balik laa

(pon belajar sendiri)

my resume have nothing to add

so i think i need those

strengthen my english vocab

lancarkan bahasa korea n jepun

know what i got an offer to work offshore

but i dont know my parents will give me their permission or not

1. jauh dikkk kat australia tu

2. my english was not so good

so how i'm gonna survive ther

3. how's my life gonna be like

where will i stay, what food i will eat

4. about my expenses like

plane ticket, perbelanjaan kat sana

so many thing that will make they worry

since i will be alone there

yes betul pernah duduk jauh

12 jam perjalanan naik bas

tp perlis still dalam malaysia

so they know i can survive

tp nie negara luar

tempat org putih

dan sebab tu jugak aku macam ragu2

nak hantar detail2 aku

lg satu dy ade website

but only that

when u search u found nothing

but will appear another country

tambah buat aku risau

tp sebenar nya

i really want to work there

i want to experience new thing

gain many knowlege

improve my skills especially in english

so i dont know what to do

but i want to try first

contract 1 year

beside i want to find myself

lately i feel like i lose my own identity

i dont know who i am

dont know what i hv done all this time

many thing make me so confused

macam huraikan beribu wayar yg bersimpul

hmm pray for eryn

huhuhuhu

ok laa

next time update lg

maybe pasal love story 

(waaaahhhhhhhh)

or sad story

(hmm maybe cerita konvo tu)

we'll see

haahahahha

bye gais

thank you for spend ur time read my story

(kadang2 bila baca balik yg lama like

"what!!! how childish u are eryn"

"eeewwwww"

many kind of expression will appear)

hahahaha

but i will not delete the post

as for me

i want to make it as my precious memory

my old self

(even i'm being a blogger since 2013 maybe)

sayonara

annyeong

my kerja for now

hai again.......

ok now nak ckp pasal kerja pulak

tp kan nak lari topik kejap

baru kakak perasan yg post2 kakak sebelum nie

semua "after a year" or "i'm back"

hahahahaha

nampak nau takde topik

or mmg tak aktif gn blog

hahahaha,,nie aktif nie pon

ntah bila deactive balik

antara sbb yg kakak akan ckp 

"busy" "takde laptop" dll

heheheehe

ok now back to the topic

hmm kerja

yes, January 2018 kakak start keje

keje kat taska je

see now me bahasakan diri as "kakak" 

one of the reason why i choose to work there

because i dont want to feel the real work yet

(yes, all of this come from my internship experience,huh)

then, i'm now facing the problem which i dont know what i want

i dont know what i like

i dont know what i do

third, because of my depression

after graduate i think i have big depression

(will tell u later)

so the only thing i can do to cheer up is KID

since i love kids so much

dari kecik dah jaga bebudak

anak2 sepupu aku

well dulu selalu sleep over kat kampung

we all grow together

then jaga anak sedara sendiri start from bella

aiman tak sbb me dok asrama n dy dok ktg 1

my sister pantang kat sana

n lastly naim

yg paling lama kakak jaga

since dy ucu org yg paling rapat gn aku

hahahahaha

so mmg paling syg naim laa dalam ramai2 tu

heheheh,, sorry kids

so i begin my work

those kid cpt gila rapat dgn aku

tak sampai sehari semua suka dah menepek kat aku

rayyan, naufal, nadeem, anas, aariz

n yg paling rapat gn aku rayyan naufal dua beradik dgn aariz

tp skrg rayyan naufal dah tak dok taska tu dah

mama dy bg org dkt rumah dy jaga

seriously rindu gila dgn dua beradik tu

keletah naufal yg blur tp comel

aariz pulak huh si hensem boy

yg pasti semua kat situ semua rapat laa dgn aku

maybe because i spoil them so much

nak buat cemana,,, those kids soooooooooo cute

selain tu kak ina, kak hada, wan semua nya ok

ohh kak ruziah pon

ok jee semua

perangai aku same jee laa,,time cuti terperap jee dalam bilik

nak tahu tak satu cerita mengarut

semalam kan aku termimpi aku sound kak ruziah

haahahahahaha

gila,,,pendam ape tau sampai masuk mimpi

pagi td bangun aku gelak jee laa

n realize that next week kerja

whaaaa

sebulan cuti weiii,,,terlebih puas

n now i want to extend the leave

huh

sebulan cuti egt nak buat portfolio

hmm ape pon tak jadi 

bila mood aku punah kan semua

idea takde

motivation takde

org sekeliling aku yg jadi mangsa

buat design invitation naim jee

membazir cuti tp tak buat pape pon

hmm nak ckp ape lg ekk pasal kerja nie

rasanya dah panjang dahh

hmm maybe kalau aku lepas iv minggu depan 

i will start a new work

n wanna try to send my resume

and i want to go to australia!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahahaha

pray for me

tp kene kuatkan emosi

iman n everything laa kalau nak luar negara

n yg paling penting

MAK dgn AYAH bagi ke eryn???

who knows............

ok laa kakak nak out dulu

kakak nak g tgk citer 

tak ada cinta sepertimu

sbb minggu dpn tak dpt tgk daa

n next entry kakak citer pasal lain pulak ea

sad or happy???

depend on my mood that time

bye-bye

annyeong

sayonara

after a year and six months

assalamualaikum........

hai tok sesape yg bace blog aku

yes after a year and six month

i'm back!!!!

huh lama betul tak bukak blog nie

nak kata busy,,hmm

busy laa kot

with my study and all

and now i'm GRADUATED in bachelor's degree gaisssss

officially graduate last October

ho ho ho

berjaya tempuh semuanya yang awal2 dulu perghh gaye hape tah

hmm,,aku rase takde ape kot yg aku nak cerita sepanjang 2016 n 2017

sbb perjalanan hidup aku same jee

bgn pagi g kelas

stress assignment

sakit hati gn lecturer

fyp yg memendekkan jangka hayat hidup aku,,huh

malam tido

jiwa kacau

n asal jiwa kacau jee balik rumah

tu jee laa keje aku

makan tido jalani hidup cam mayat hidup

aku rasa

so aku cerita mende2 penting jee yg jadi dalam hidup aku

macam aku graduate, aku keje dan lain-lain

kisah graduate aku ade gembira n sedih

but now i only want to talk about part of my happiness only

another happiness like my family n my sad story

nanti laa kalau ade mood aku nak cerita

takut mende yg aku dah nak lupa

bila ingat balik aku jadi sakit hati balik

even now aku ckp pasal graduate aku egt mende yg sedih tu

bukan yg gembira

alamak!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my mood dah nak bertukar moody nie

so cepat kita tukar topik...............

well,,nie laa gamba aku kat atas pentas

aku tak upluad kat memana lg gamba nie

tgk sekali jee pastu terus aku simpan

hahahahahaha

sbb buruk!!!!!

even gamba gn tuanku pon aku tak ley terima

(terima kenyataan yg kakak nie tak lawa dik) 

so aku upluad sini sbb takde org yg bace blog aku

official picture with my family

lepas tu ape ekk.......

hmm lepas tu aku tak terus keje

aku egt nak buat freelance

since ade yg mintak tolong aku buat website dy

tp bile aku contact dy,dy senyap jee

terus aku pon senyap jee laa

penyakit aku bila kat rumah aku jadi super duper pemalas

continue jadi mayat hidup

makan tidur jee

well makan byk mana pon my berat still the same

bila nak naik aku pon tak tahu

aku tak kesah pon

janji sihat sudah

pastu start bulan 1 hari tu aku decide nak keje

keje taska jee dikk non

n semenjak tu aku terbiasakan diri aku as "kakak"

kat memana jee,,insta or twitter

in fact dgn naim pon aku biase kan diri "kakak" not "cik eryn"

huh,,gilaa

why keje taska???

kenapa tak cari keje lain??

hmm nt laa aku citer ek pasal tu

dkt next post

aku rasa byk mende aku nak ckp

pasal diri aku, like why i feel nothing to everything i do

ehh byk laa

bye

sbb rasanya dah panjang sgt dah nie

hahahahaha

bye-bye for now