i lost my friend

hye guys

how are you??

fine?? i am not

today i lost one of my friend forever

i cannot control my emotion

these past few days my mood also gone

last Monday i got news from my friend

they told about my friend lost in the sea at Cherating

he went to the sea with his friend

then he got caught in strong waves

his friends so panic and ask the others there to help

he lost at 6.30 pm on Monday

his closed friend named Iman was totally sad because he cannot help to find him with the other because he was studied in matriculation

he only can pray and he keep tweet in twitter about Aiman

i so sad for him

every time i read his tweet i cried

last night i chat my friend Adam

he also best friend to Aiman

he replied and he also cried

i am so pity on him

he also cannot go help find Aiman because he is in Universiti Malaysia Kelantan

i try gave him support word

he cannot control and he angry with me

but i understand about his sad

me also sad our friend still not found

fortunately yesterday was a holiday

my eyes totally like panda

and today i go to class with no mood

live like a zombie

at 12 o'clock i got message from my friend

she send me a photo about Aiman

he's dead?????

i am so speechless that time

then i check my twitter to conform that new

and it is true...i saw Iman tweet about Aiman's dead

they has found his body

i got call from my best friend

she cried and on the spot me also cried

we cannot believe that we lost our friend from we are in form 1

she heard i am cried and she tried to comfort me

i just cannot control my emotion that time and i cried

i stay alone and cried

Amirah and me want to go back to see him for the last time but we are on our schedule

this evening she got test for her final exam

i know she is strong and she can do it

and me also have to attend the class this evening

in the class our lecturer told us to present about new media that you are active and like

our group turn has come and i cannot speak

i cried once again because i want to tell the other the new media that i chose is twitter

why??because i can easily get latest information about my friend there

i got all information about Aiman also in twitter from Iman

that's why i cannot control my emotion and i cried

at the end of the class

i met the lecturer  and i ask her forgiveness because i did not focus at all at her lecture from early in the morning

i told her about Aiman and she comfort me

she hug me and i cried at her shoulder

thanks madam for understand my condition

for this few days my eyes like panda

cried a lot

i never think this is the end of his life

Aiman i hope you rest peacefully there

i promise i will not cry anymore

and you will be free there.....

and to all my friend

forgive me if i had throw my anger to you guys

i really not meant it

sorry once again

lets recite al fatihah for my friend

MUHAMMAD AIMAN BIN HAJI KHALIB

i hope he will be place in a good place there

aminn

aku tak nak hilang kawan

ya allah

luluh hati bile dengar salah seorang sahabat aku kena musibah

aiman,,kau kat manaaaaaa

malam tadi tgh dinner gn colinna

tetibe bace moment dak2 nie

dyorg sume ckp aiman hilang lemas kat cherating

ya allah.......

terus hilang selera makan aku

aiman,,org yg suke cari pasal gn aku kat sekolah dulu

sape tak sedih bile meber sendiri kene musibah

tambah2 lg kitorg sume tak tahu hidop ke mati dy kat sane

nak tido pon tak lena

aku harap sgt bila bgn dpt berita dy dah dijumpai

tp takkkkk

ya allah,,,,

bantulah kami semua

permudahkanlah proses pencarian sahabat kami ya allah

pagi tade bukak twitter tgk adam post pasal berita dy

masuk metro....

ya allah

nak gugur jantung aku rase

dy kene bawak ombak lepas 15 minit dy mandi gn kawan2 dy

aku pon tak tahu bile kitorg dapat berita yg pasti pasal dy

hari nie panas sgt

aku harap kat sane pon same supaya proses nak cari dy senang

mannn,,balik lah.......

ramai orang sygkan kau tgh tggu kau

geng pinggir sume dah turun padang cari kau

balikk laa mannn

sian family kau

bile aku teringat kan dy sume kenangan waktu skola dulu dtg

semua memori dr kitorg mula2 kenal sampai lah sekarang

aku tak tahu dah nak ckp ape

aku spechless sgt

menangis aku bace status member2 terutame iman

betape syg nye dy kat kau

zira mesti sedih gila2

sedangkan kitorg kawan2 pon sedih apetah lg org yg paling rapat gn dy

aku kalau boleh taknak dengar berita buruk pasal dy

aku nak dengar berita baik je

aku nak dengar yg dy dah dijumpai

dan yg paling penting selamat dan masih bernyawa

kadang2 aku nak je rase mcm aiman main2 je

tp realiti nye mmg mcm nie

sedih sgt.....

aku tak tahu dah nak buat ape

hanye doa je yg kitorg sume mampu bg kat kau man

kitorg doakan semoga proses pencarian kau selamat

tak kisah laa org tu rapat atau tak gn aku

aku syg sume kawan2 aku

aku paling tak suke hilang member

aku tak suke dgr cerita buruk pasal member aku

kalau boleh aku tak nak putus kawan dgn sume kawan2 aku

aimannnn

tolong laa balikk

kesian kat kitorg

kesian kat family kau

kesian kat kawan2 kau

aku harap kau masih bernyawa kat mane pon kau berada

settle kerja aku

hai korang,,

aku nak story lg nie....

sorry sekarang nie aku asyik luah perasaan jer

hurm,,,aku sebenarnye dah penat sgt gn sume nie

walaupon hati aku sakit lg

tp disebabkan keluarga aku mintak maaf jugak laa

walaupon bukan salah aku tp nak wat camne

kenelaa mengalah

patut nye yg besar laa kene mengalah kan??

nie yg kecik pulak yg mengalah...

takpee laa

aku redho jer laa

sampai bile nak hubungan kitorg mcm nie

ego lelaki mmg susah nak dilunturkan

walaupon aku ego tp aku sanggup

aku mintak maaf panjang2 mcm karangan bm dah aku ase

tp aku tak rase aku akn jd mcm dulu

nurul airen yg ceria dlm family dah mati

aku pon dah tukar panggilan aku

biase nye aku biasekan diri aku adk

kali nie aku pakai sy

lantak lah nak ckp ape

aku mmg susah nak maafkan org

entah laa,,aku tak tahu daa nak ckp mcm mane

hati aku still sakit

takkan semudah tu aku nak lupakan

mungkin akn ade yg ckp aku hipokrit

mulut ckp daa maafkan

tp hati tak

tp itulah aku

sebelah pihak je yg minta maaf

sebelah pihak lg???

masing2 dah besar

lgpon sume dah ade keluarga sendiri

kengkadang aku pernah terfikir

betol ke dyorg syg kat aku???

dyorg betol ke terima aku dlm hidop dyorg??

dyorg ikhlas ke dgn aku selame nie???

entah laa,,itu urusan masing2 dgn ALLAH 

aku terima je

nak buat mcm mane kalau sbnarnye dyorg tak syg kat aku

tu lah takdir yg aku kena terima nak atau tak

sedih dan terluka hny aku sorg je yg rase

semua benda aku rase sendiri

bukan nye aku share gn org lain

key lah korang...

sorry once again

dah bg korang bace kisah family aku

patut nye aku tak story pn tp aku tak tahu daa nak citer kat sape

bye,,assalamualaikum

my happy day today

thank for those who wished me today

i'm so touched

even kitorg baru lg kat sini

tp kitorg rapat mcm daa lame kenal

pagi tadi aku g kelas mcm biase

then tgh free2 tu aku gtaw adda,

"adda,nak hadiah"

tetibe budak sebelah n belakang aku,,

"eh eryn,bfday kau kan hari nie"

aku macam,,ok,,blushing kejap

then kecoh laa kuliah tu dok wish birthday aku

sampai part budak laki,

dyorg g bantai nyanyi kuat2

aku ape lagi,bile malu nangis laa

nasib lecturer tak masuk lagi time tu

gile lah bebudak ny...

hahahahahaha

tak habis sampai situ je,,

tadi lepas habis kelas nak balik kolej

dyorg sume g bantai nyanyi dlm bas pulak

ya allah,,once again i cried maluuuuuu

dah laa ade budak lain dlm bas tu

sume dok tercari-cari

nasib aku dok belakang

so dyorg tak nampak lah

senget gile dak2 nie...

thanks korang,,

even baru kenal korang sedikit sebanyak daa happy kan aku

ade yg siap kenakan aku,,

dy ckp kalau nak hadiah kene couple dulu

aku macam???

ok,,bengong pny budak

hahahaha,,senget sangat bebudak ny

korang daa tolong tambah satu sweet memory dlm hidop aku

eira,,aku rase kau patut bace blog aku

sbb aku rase kau dah salah paham

aku bukan jenis org yg senang2 je nak cerita pasal family aku

sorry tak cerita kat kau

tp aku harap kau bace blog aku dan kau paham

masalah aku kali nie takde kene mengene pasal member pon

even member laa tempat aku bergantung nak bg aku happy sekarang

sampai kan aku rase aku nak cut hubungan aku gn sume org

tp parents aku tak tahu paspe n dyorg tak salah

itu je care tok dyorg contact aku

sorry lame tak contact kau

i just cant tell u directly

i'm so sorry dear...

sbb tu aku harap kau bace blog aku

bia kau tau sikit sebanyak kat situ....

thank for caring bout me

kau ttp kawan aku sampai bile2

new student at the new place

huh

i'm officially unimap student

hahahaa

mase minggu orentasi ya allah

penat gila,dgn tido tak cukop nye

pastu sekarang da habis orentasi bahagia

jadual kelas pon da dapat

sgt heaven

sehari ade satu atau dua kelas jer u

hahahahahah

tp kelas sume dua or tiga jam

kalau mengantuk tu nasib laa

pandai2 nak hidop lah

hari nie dah hari rabu

maknenye daa tiga hari aku g kelas

but unfortunately big problem come to me

i got trouble with my brothers

i really need help yesterday

but they joke at the wrong time

at the end aku lepaskan ayt yg agak kurang ajar kat dlm grup tu

and i leave the grup

tu maknenye sabar aku daa habis lah tu

aku byk sgt sabar selamae nie

semua masalah aku simpan sorg2

tak penah pon aku citer kat sesape

termasok member baik aku sendiri

tadi kakak aku chat aku

soh aku cool down

tlg laa sampai bile lg aku kene cool down n tahan sume ni

i'm so tired with all this!!!!

at last aku ckp kat dy

"adik tak penah buang keluarga tp adik buang diri adk sendiri,bagus jugak adk dok jaoh,sesorg je kat sini"

aku penat sgt........

aku nak belajar dgn tenang

aku nak dptkan ijazah for my parents

tlg laa jgn kacau emosi n perasaan aku

aku tak nak cerita kat mak ayah aku sbb dyorg daa tua

so aku taknak bebankan dyorg

aku harapkan abg2 aku boleh tolong

at last this is what i got

aku taknak kacau kakak aku sbb aku tau dy busy

aku nak cerita masalah aku kat sape

dari kecik aku simpan semua nye sendiri

sbb tu perangai aku berubah bile aku gn family aku

aku lebih suke dok sorg2

tp dgn kawan2 aku terpakse ceria kan hidop aku

taknak dyorg perasan pape

sorry korang,,aku terpakse luah kat sini

sbb aku betol2 daa tak tahan

i had no one to talk n story

kat sini je aku boleh luahkan sbb aku tau takde sape yg bace blog aku

doakan aku berjaye n dapat ketenangan

i hope i can finish this study

bye,,assalamualaikum